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My life seems to contstantly swing between being organised, but too tired, or disorganised, but getting more sleep. Up at 5:00 or so this morning to get a lift to work. Done by 3pm then I'm bussing it back to have hot wax poured on intimate places by a cute young girl. And I'll be silky smooth afterwards!

Wasn't going to sleep last night as I'd caved and had a 5pm coffee (which was wonderful), so had a bit of a meditate. I'ts been a while sinve I've been able to shut out the outside world enough to do it, but even the distant sound of the roadworks didin't stop me last night, sitting in the light of the full moon. =o) After that, I went back to bed and was almost instantly in a lovely sleep. Only to be woken at 1am by duelling reverse alarms! Gah! i did manage to get back to sleep reasonably quickly though. Thank something-or-other that they'll be over the next hill soon, and nothing more than a fading memory.

Work is playing on my mind a lot lately. I kinda realised that my chances of leaving are pretty slim until min-next year. We're simply too busy for it, and I'm not really willing to be unemployed until after the wedding anyway (it's long and complex, but I'm not beating myself up over anything. For a change.). Funny think is, when I decided I really was leaving, I found this wonderful emotional seperation from it all,and now that I'm not leaving just yet, I've stayed detached. I am not my job. Still not much luck improving my work ethic though. =o( I really do think I'll need a change in employment for that to kick in. Despite my good intentions, bad habits have become ingrained and with no change in circumstance, it's hard to break the pattern. Not to say I've given up trying though.

Work aside, we've been busy little fishes, but in a good way. Our social life is out of control lately, and we're pretty much booked up from now until Christmas. Madness. A year ago I was bemoaning that I had very few friends left in Brisbane and no life. In the 12 months since I've made new friends and strengthened relationships with old, and now I barely have an unsocial moment! I actually think I need some more Toni-alone time! Well, at least some more Toni-catch-up-on-things time. I still haven't done my tax return...

Which brings me full circle. Never enough sleep and too much to do, versus enough sleep and anxiety that I'm not keeping up. Maybe one day I'll learn how to keep it balanced.






P.S. My email is down, so I'm not getting comments and the like. Apologies if I've missed anything. Hopefully it'll be up soon, or I'll just have to give up on mongie and re-route to gmail...

Stand up and take notice

"it is difficult to form any conclusion other than that the culture of [the immigration department] was so motivated by imperatives associated with the removal of unlawful non-citizens that officers failed to take into account the
basic human rights obligations that characterise a democratic society".

Our sociopathic Prime Minister has gone and made bloody Phil Ruddock the attorney-general and put him in charge of Australia's anti (ha!) terrorism laws. Mr. ruddock, the man who believes mandatory detention for imigration seekers, including children, is a'ok. The man who had consistently implemented policies that break the UN's Human Right's Act. Fantastic.

If you don't know anything about this legislation, I suggest you find out about it fast. A pdf version can be downloaded here, many thanks to the Chief Minister from the ACT, Mr. Jon Stanhope. Only through his leaking of this document has news of the proposed changes got out. Hooray for a politician having a concience when the Government holds the balance of power in the senate (i.e. there's no one to block is passing).

The new "anti-terror" laws will, in my opinion, actually incite attacks, they are that awful! You can be held without charge for 2 weeks, held under house arrest for 12 months, including restricting all forms of communication, and arrested for "inciting violence against the government". Worse than that, if you're held in custody for any of these offences, even uncharged, you cannot talk about it. It cannot be brought to public attention, thus gross mis-carriages of justice are free to occur. And if you thought that was bad enough, "shoot to kill" provisions are being brought in that allow unarmed suspects to be shot if they attempt to flee. And a suspect, in this case, is anyone they think *might* be a terrorist suspect, as the requirement for evidence of intent to committ a crime has been waived.

This is insanity. If you thought the government's Industrial Relations legislation was scary (which is really is, don't get me wrong), this anti-terror stuff is downright terrifying.

Go back to sleep Australia, your government has everything under control...