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The last three years have been somewhat of a misadventure for me, with health woes piling on to medical complaints and mental melt-downs. I lost a lot of weight, gained a lot more and underwent treatment for anxiety. Just whenI was beginning to remember what "normal" felt like my immune system went to town on my thyroid gland and I was diagnosed with Graves Disease. It seemed like I no longer knew my own body. Nothing worked the way it used to and very little made sense. I had a severe case of hyper-thyroidism, yet I was gaining weight. The thyroid medication reduced most of the syptoms, but the upset digestion, moodiness and misbehaving metabolism remained.

By August it became apparent that something else was going on with my digestive tract. For several years I'd develop bloating and indigestion if I ate too much wheat, but in the months prior I'd been on the road so much that wheat had become a dominant part of my diet. I'd stopped noticing the reaction to wheat until it had become so much more severe. I had no appetite, felt constantly tired and bloated, had the runs and was putting on even more weight. I was catching every bug that went around; again. This was not right. In a moment of mental clarity I realised that I was reacting to something I was eating. I considered the two food types I'd reacted to indulging in too much in the past: wheat and dairy. I was facing a process of elimination. Remembering the bloatyness, I decided to start with wheat.

24 hours later I started feeling better.

3 days later my digestion started to behave itself.

I thought I had the answer: I was wheat intolerant! I just needed to avoid wheat flour-based products and all would be well.

That conclusion, as it turns out, was far too simple. Initial improvements were countered by sudden returns of those now-familiar symptoms. I eliminated spelt, then rye, and more improvements followed, but still new sensitivities emerged.

By the end of 2007 I came to the realisation that I am completely gluten intolerant. I have diagnosed myself with Coeliac disease. There is a medical check: a blood test to detect the anti-bodies produced in response to gluten, but in order to prove anything you have to eat enough gluten to produce enough anti-bodies to be detected by the test. How much gluten is enough? My doctor says to eat a normal diet but to include gluten. When even the gluten in one jelly bean is enough to make me sick, the official diagnosis just doesn't seem worth it.

So I can't eat bread, or pasta, or pastries, or breakfast cereals. That's the obvious stuff. But I also can't eat soy sauce or soba noodles, most potato chips or rice crackers, marinades or marmite. I can't even eat most brands of ice-cream! Supermarket products are rife with gluten disguised as wheat glucose or caramel colour or thickener or natural flavours. But you know, that's ok. As long as I know the gluten's there, I can avoid it. And the best part is that in avoiding gluten I'm learning to look after myself and to feed my body well. Because to eat gluten-free is to eat freshly prepared, high quality, naturally flavoursome foods. When you're eating like that, you really don't miss mass-produced foods that taste like artificiality. And good things follow: I'm losing weight, I feel energetic and bouncy. I feel properly like me for the first time in years. We are eating well.

Where it gets difficult, though, is eating out. At cafes, restaurants and friends' houses food becomes a risk. Not everyone understands the many forms gluten can take and the unexpected places you'll find it.

We spent the weekend past at Alex's parent's place, in celebration of my boy's recent birthday. Hs father takes great joy and pride in cooking, and has been happy to accomodate my increasingly difficult requirements. On Saturday night he made roast beef with baked vegetables and gluten-free Yorkshire puddings. He even used proper corn flour to thicken the gravy! But he didn't think to check the supermarket-bought stock. I was a veritable picture of mysery that night and the following Sunday; my belly hard and bloaty, and my stomach sore. It was Sunday night before I could even face up to food (a gentle, easy to digest gluten-recovery diet) and today I'm still feeling tender and tired, my digestive tract grumling gassily.

But even in recovery mode, gluten-free food is fabulous. Just look at what my wonderful husband has made me for dinner. And even better, it's made with love.

Sushi!
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Powershouse sky


I have a dentists appointment in the morning to finally do something about my wisdom teeth. First up some x-rays to see what's really going on, then I'll have to sit back in the chair and relax, and look into the light...

Needless to say I'm not looking forward to it. I know they need to come out, though I'm not sure how much of a mess the getting out will be. Hopefully it'll be straight forward and not too expensive! I may also need braces to straighten out the damage, but hopefully the rest of my teeth will spread back out with the pressure gone. Add to that a likely filling due to fluorosis and it'll be a joy-filled visit.

Ah well, as I sit there I'll be thinking of Pam Ayers...
"So I lay in the old dentist's chair,
And I gaze up his nose in despair..."
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PrideEyesAlex


Eugh, busy. I've taken tonight off though. I made a very simple but yummy dinner (chicken breats stuffed with garlic, pesto and blue cheese, baked on top of potato slices and served with a simple salad and torn fresh dill), then had a luxurious shower, touched up the remaining red colour in my hair (not much) then painted my finger (silver) and toe (silvery red) nails. I'm making sure I set aside time to spoil myself after being rushed off my feet for so long. I've put on loads of weight because I haven't been eating properly, and because I'm low on sleep I've been craving sugar and carbs, and I've been giving in to those cravings. The result is an unhealthy, lumpy-feeling Toni, which isn't the way it should be, so I'm taking time out to be kind to myself. =o)

I'm in a funny place at the moment. Mostly I'm enjoying the business, because I'm doing good things, I'm doing well at work and I feel challenged. But I'm run down and lacking in shiny and my patience has run thin for people not pulling their weight (resulting in getting cranky with my housemate). I try to balance a lot of things and it doesn't always work out. At the moment work's the biggest ball in the air, but there's also the fish and the garden, cooking and baking, friends and family, and photography, topped off with a continuing out-of-balance thyroid (and $230 for the specialist to tell me what I already knew). LiveJournal has fallen behind in my list of priorities, and I haven't been able to keep up. I've had to hack and slash at my f-list through lack of time, cutting people I never thought I'd be able to. I apologise for any hurt feelings, it's not personal, just the reality of living a very full life.

You won't get rid of me completely though, I promise. ;-) And in the meantime, here's some shiny from when we went to Pride.

PrideEyesToni
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Erm, hello Livejournal.



Still not much in the mood for writing, but I'm slowly starting to feel more like getting out and about. Taking it easy has been very good for us. I've been spending time on the things that really count. The fish tanks look stunning, the garden's been attacked with a new bed put in, and my relationship is as wonderful as ever. *smile* Health is meh - I'm not responding well to the medication and may need to be irradiated. This is offically bleh, but there's nothing I can do about it - I just have to see what comes from the next blood test. Mentally though, I'm all over it.

On the downside, my camera is broken. I picked it up on Saturday and it was borked. It's at the repair shop now, but will take tow to six (!!!) weeks to be repaired. That means no camera to take pictures at Pride this weekend (if, indeed, I end up going), and most likely no camera for our trip to Longreach in a fortnight! Now, I can possibly borrow my friend's swanky DSLR while we're in Longreach, but that still leaves the road trip through some of the most scenic parts. I have my old film point and shoot, though I'm not sure if it works, and will need to put a film in it to find out (don't you hate that!). Anyway, boo, hiss, etc.



Work is flat out. I'm off to Townsville next week to put on a workshop, and there's a thousand and one things to do before-hand. I was intending on working over the long weekend, but I collapsed instead, which I think I needed. Anyway, it means there's not really time for anything beofre I go, then when I come back we go to Longreach, then I have a week off to see the parents, do my tax and generally catch up. After that it's back to work with a new contract (yay), a new desk (meh) and a new group (I don't wanna go!).

The (not so anymore) new house is going rather well. It's full of light and air and love. The commute I could live without...

Well, I think that's about it, so here are some photos of the (no longer) bald one. Enjoy!

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Toni was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. There wasn't much she could do about that though; the doctor had said it would be another two weeks or so until she began to feel normal again. At least there was one big positive to come out of this whole thing, she thought, being that Graves' Disease sounds far more ominous than it is. The shock on peoples faces when she informed them of the diagnosis hasn't ceased being funny yet. It's also been a great excuse for sleeping in, and Toni had been exploiting that to the full, arriving late to work every day since.

She did wonder how much it all was truly affecting her. Some days she felt perfectally ok and others she could barely drag herself out of bed. After a rough week last week Toni somehow managed to haul herself off to a rave on Saturday night and not come home until 5 o'clock in the morning. Sure she'd felt pretty ordinary for the next few days, but seeing Infected Mushrrom playing live was worth every ache and exhausted day afterwards. Mind you, Toni always has been stubborn, so pushing her body further for a night of fun is completely in character. Her only concession to illness was staying sober for the night, though that was made up for on Sunday night with no restraint shown towards a nice pinot.

As much as she hated to admit it, Toni knew at heart that ill health was knocking her around. Sometimes the little things did it, like being put back on anti-depressants to manage the symptoms. The hardest thing to take though was that she'd been so close to good health. After several years of frequent illness and chronic stress the girl was finally getting on top of things. Truth be told, Toni hadn't felt this fabulous in five years or so. How cruel it then was to slip back down again to serious illness, and how bleak the promise of a life-time of medication.

Currently, our girl's just taking each day as it comes. Some are not so good, but on the whole she's fine and most certainly life could be worse. Her work has been extraordinarly supportive, thoguh the finances less so since she ran out of sick leave. She's been spoiling herself too, with bright bunches of chrysanthemums, cheese and chocolate. She's been spoiling the boy as well, of course, as he's had too many late nights giving massages and cuddles and keeping insomnia company. He's done the dishes an awful lot too, as Toni's been quite the demon in the kitchen lately. Cooking makes her feel better, it requires enough mental attention to be distracting without being draining and provides a creative outlet. Best of all it means she gets to eat all sorts of delicious goodies, though consequently she's running out of clothes that fit.

The week is short and she's grateful for it when every day seems uncannily long. Outside of work her hours are filled with blood tests, trips to the doctor and physio, though at least her back has stopped hurting now. Don't worry, she's still spending hours in front of the computer (too much of it spent incompetenly "fixing" a hardware problem that crashes Photoshop) and relaxing. Toni's decided she needs a little time away from alcohol though. She hasn't had a hangover in over a year, but it's the frequency that's caused concern and when a week without is the the biggest break in a while, drinking needs addressing. (I assume I've alluded that she adores aliteration earlier.) Perhaps she imbibes like her user-name a little too frequently. Regardless, she feels a respite can't do her any harm and added alcohol to her list of (temporarily) banned substances.

The main thing is that our girl and her boy are ok. The novelty of rubbing his fuzzy head had not yet worn off, though he's not complaining. All this health concern has provided an excellent distraction from the demands of university (her boy's been a bit of a slack bastard), but he'll still get full marks from her.

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Grave's Disease (Diffuse thyrotoxic goiter)

First described by Robert Graves in 1835, Graves' disease is an autoimmune disease that arises as a consequence of the body producing antibodies against the thyroid (thyroid stimulating immunoglobulins) that result in excess thyroid hormone production. Graves disease is the most common cause of hyperthyroidism. The antibodies stimulate the TSH receptor on the thyroid gland, resulting in enlargement of the thyroid and excess thyroid hormone synthesis and secretion. Graves disease is caused by an abnormal immune system response that attacks the thyroid gland, and causes too much production of thyroid hormones. The precipitating event for the production of the antibodies and the development of the disease remains poorly understood. Although stress is often noted prior to or coincident with the development of Grave's disease, it is not possible to state with complete certainty that there is a scientific link between stress and the development of Grave's disease.

The production of thyroid hormone is increased, causing a wide range of symptoms from anxiety and restlessness to insomnia and weight loss.

Symptoms
  • Protruding eyes (less common in children)
  • Weight loss
  • Increased appetite
  • Nervousness
  • Restlessness
  • Heat intolerance
  • Increased sweating
  • Fatigue
  • Muscle weakness
  • Double vision
  • Eye irritation
  • Tremor
  • Frequent bowel movements
  • Menstrual irregularities
  • Goiter (possible)


  • For most people, Graves disease responds well to treatment. However, thyroid surgery or radioactive iodine will sometimes cause hypothyroidism, which can lead to weight gain, depression, and mental and physical sluggishness. Antithyroid medications can also have serious side effects.

    http://www.endocrineweb.com/hyper1.html
    http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000358.htm
    http://www.endocrineweb.com/hyper1.html


    Neo-Mercazole (carbimazole)

    Carbimazole is a thyroid reducing agent. It is is rapidly metabolised to methimazole, which works to reduce the levels of thyroid hormone by decreasing thyroid hormone synthesis.

    The thyroid gland uses a chemical called iodine in the formation of thyroid hormones. Iodine must be converted in the body to a useable form before it can be combined with other components to form thyroid hormones. Carbimazole acts to prevent the conversion of iodine to its useable form. Carbimazole also acts to block the combination of converted iodine with other components to form thyroid hormones. This results in a decreased production of thyroid hormones. Carbimazole does not immediately decrease the blood levels of thyroid hormones, because the existing high levels of thyroid hormones already produced by the thyroid gland must be used up by the body. This means it may take three to four weeks after starting carbimazole treatment before the thyroid hormone levels begin to decrease. Some improvement is usually felt within one to three weeks. However, full beneficial effects usually take four to eight weeks.

    Adverse reactions usually occur in the first eight weeks of treatment. The most frequently occurring reactions are nausea, headache, arthralgia, mild gastric distress, skin rashes and pruritus. These reactions are usually self-limiting and may not require withdrawal of the medicine. Blood and lymphatic system disorders. Bone marrow depression has been reported and can lead to agranulocytosis. Rare cases of pancytopenia/aplastic anaemia and isolated thrombocytopenia have also been reported. Additionally, very rare cases of haemolytic anaemia have been reported. Patients should always be instructed to recognise symptoms which may suggest bone marrow depression, to stop the medicine and to seek medical advice immediately. In such patients, blood cell counts should be performed, particularly where there is any clinical evidence of infection.

    Symptoms
  • Headache
  • Joint pain (arthralgia)
  • Skin rashes
  • Itching (pruritus)
  • Disturbances of the gut such as nausea, diarrhoea, constipation, abdominal pain
  • Hair loss (alopecia)
  • Decrease in the normal numbers of blood cells in the blood
  • Yellowing of the skin and eyes (jaundice)
  • Muscle disorders (myopathy)

    Carbimazole crosses the placenta but, provided the mother's dose is within the standard range, and her thyroid status is monitored, there is no evidence of neonatal thyroid abnormalities. Studies have shown that the incidence of congenital malformations is greater in the children of mothers whose hyperthyroidism has remained untreated than in those to whom treatment with carbimazole has been given.NeoMercazole is secreted in breast milk and, if treatment is continued during lactation, the patient should not continue to breast-feed her baby.

    http://www.medsafe.govt.nz/Profs/Datasheet/n/Neo-Mercazoletab.htm
    http://emc.medicines.org.uk/emc/assets/c/html/displaydoc.asp?DocumentID=14594
    http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/medicines/100001813.html
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    ...a good place to tread

    The further along this path I go, the further I realise still lies ahead.
    With each step up the light pours in.
    How much further still to rise,
    Only time shall tell.

    P-bands

    Aug. 24th, 2006 10:08 pm
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    Lately, a few bands starting with P have really been grabbing my interest:
    * Pony Up
    * The Presets
    * The Panda Band
    * Peter, Bjorn & John

    And in the world of Hip Hop, there's Lupe Fiasco's "Kick Push", which just makes me think of summer (I've never skated), along with Soul Position's "Hand Me Downs". And if you've never heard it, here's The Herd with a cover version of Redgum's "I was only 19" (live version featuring Redgum - recorded version is musically better but I can't find it).

    Something that sprung to mind recently: my school guidance counsellor suggested I join the police force, as I like helping people and contributing to society. Poor Mr. Geitszel, you were not aware of my dis-respect for authority. Here's to the balance between social conscience and anarchy!

    Also: Windows Geriatric. An operating system for the older generation. A very basic OS with idiot limiting. I *need* it now. before I have to fix both sets of parent's PCs again (oh wait, I already have to do the in-law's). "Windows Geriatric: it's as fast as you are."

    Work is going well. Busy busy, and lots of over-time - usually an hour a day, though today I did 2. Lots of working out difficult equations and translating them for a lay audience. Using maths I haven't touched for eleven years. There's a great sense in satisfaction in working it out, though my brain hurts. Came home to a special bottle of red from the boy. A bit of a waste on Thursday night. I don't normally drink until (sometimes) Friday, but hey. Tonight my brain needed it's soothing ethynol bath.

    I'm enjoying it though, the job. For once the week doesn't drag and I'm leaping out of bed in the morning. I'm making friends in the new office - they seem to like me for who I am - unlike the feelings of constant discomfort int he old one. The longer I'm in this job, the more I realise how fucked up the old one was. I am so much healthier. Speaking of longer, there's a good chance I'll be extended at end of contract, which I'm pretty happy about. Altough it makes Melbourne plans a little trickier, it's a job I'm loving, learning in, and gaining experience in an area I've been keen to break into, plus the pay is rather nice (even though none of it has hit my bank account yet). Certainly it won't go beyond December as the project (national) funding ceases. Plus we've got a state election to throw more uncertainly into the mix. I could handle stability until December though, with application writing on the weekend (starting this weekend for a job in Doncaster).

    Anyway, it's past time for bed. I'll catch you later.

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